Author: ohsuzan
Date: 2005-12-15 22:06
Hi Shelley --
It sounds as if you are really in pain!
Since you say you have sought medical tratment, I'd just like to ask if any of them have suggested the idea of muscle spasms in the shoulder and back brought on by tension and stress. Maybe a masseuse could help?
Your body is definitely trying to tell you something -- like, "Quit whatever it is you are doing here!"
I get horrible, painful back spasms whenever I have to deal with my mother-in- law, which I have come to believe is God's way of telling me to get her to MOVE OUT of my house.
From everything I have heard and read, you probably have got it right about the money issues in professional music. Especially classical music. I compromised, and worked for about 20 years as a full-time church music director. It paid well enough, but it was gruelling hard work, and completely ate up my nights and weekends, in addition to many of my days.
I was a literature major in my "first" life. Got an M.A., qualified for my Ph.D. But to this day, I cannot sit down and read poetry or a novel. Just can't. I have no desire to read anything more complicated than "Reader's Digest".
Sometimes, it really IS time to let go.
Best wishes to you.
Susan
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