Author: Deranged Winner
Date: 2020-09-20 06:15
Thank you for the replies.
I did enjoy playing music in my high school's full orchestra, but I have always felt that my technique and tone quality was holding me back. It was probably a huge mistake leaving my former clarinet teacher in tenth grade, and now I will have to start all over with a new teacher. My former clarinet teacher, from my perspective, had the biggest ego that I've ever seen. He implied to me that my thinking processes are mediocre, and that my way of doing things is bad. I don't really know if this was a mistake, but I asked him to wait for me to work and speed up on my etudes on my own then I'd come back to him when I'm ready one month after the All-State etudes were released. He told me that he finds this as a sign of disrespect and asked me to leave him. I don't understand why he decided to do this to me when I trusted him to help improve my playing. Maybe it was because I told him that I wanted to destroy my clarinet rivals at another school at All-State in an email; it came harsh, I believe. It's such a disappointing experience as I expected him to fully support me in my journey to All-State. It was as if he gave up on me. I kindly asked him to lend me an R13 for the All-State audition, but he bluntly refused to. What a horrible relationship. Then I didn't make All-State.
I missed a few notes in my audition for All-State, but that's because I didn't have the clarinet (the R13) that I wanted for the best tone quality that I could have gotten. It was demotivating for me to have such a bad tone quality at the audition, and I don't want to go through that again. I didn't squeak at all like a few people who did make All-State.
@Ken Lagace, I did do all of the things that you had priority on. It was mainly my tone quality that didn't get me through.
Post Edited (2020-09-20 06:16)
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