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burnt out

Author: Laurie
Date: 2006-08-08 05:41

I've been a music major for 4 years.. Because I transfered I still have 2 to go.

[snipped - GBK ] I'm sick of retaking classes with kids 3 years younger, i'm sick of the school rivarly, and ego's taking over. I hate that i only need 15 credits to student teach, but i will need to be there for 2 years because of sequences and schedules. I'm sick of no one at my new school recognizing that i have expirence, that i'm a good student and I worked hard. I was on the deans list when i transfered.

I'm burnt out. I practice because i have to. I don't remember the last time i played for fun. I get solid 4.0's in clarinet, and A's for my juries but i don't go above and beyond like i use to. I study and work hard, but i always feel like a failure. I have great teachers both at school and at home but its hard.

I don't know what do. All I want to do is get out and teach. I'm sick of school, i'm so sick of it. I'm more afraid that because i've had such a rough run in school that when i get out, I won't love it as much as when i got in. I'm really afraid that the next two years will just kill any love that left for music.

I guess what i'm asking here, is how do I get through in one piece. Any advice for finding and gettting back that love of music and or dealing with schools and being a music major ?

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