Klarinet Archive - Posting 000471.txt from 2002/12

From: "Rebecca Brennan" <rjbrennan1221@-----.com>
Subj: [kl] problem
Date: Thu, 19 Dec 2002 19:43:35 -0500

Lately I have been getting vI need to rant and get a bit of advise.

I have my regular private teacher that I went to and plan to go back to
after the new year, but right now I am seeing another teacher because I will
not see my teacher until after my all-state audition because she only
teaches the one day of the week that both the winter concert, snow,
Christmas, New year, and everything else has seemed to fall on this month.

On my all-state pieces I have has 5 professional opinons on it. My private
teacher, my band director, an army band commander, and the clarinet teacher
from Marshall University who all say I do an excellent job at it. Then there
is that guy I have been going to. Every measure I play he stops and says
something. To three of the people I just listed I cross the break very
smoothly on the Rose study, but to this guy he says it sounds like I am
chopping it to death. It could be that every time I have a lesson with this
guy that I have a nervous breakdown and cry my eyes out and can't play for a
day or so. I get very nervous around him and everything just goes blank and
it is like I forget everything I know because he was so harsh on me at the
first lesson. He also puts down my private teacher who plays with the West
Virginia Symphony and whom is a very good teacher. Then today I learn that
he doesn't even play clarinet at all.

ery winded after a few minutes of practice and I can't do it anymore. I sit
there and sulk because I CAN NOT practice. I don't know exactly what is
wrong, but I constantly think of the comments I get from him. When I told
him how I felt and that I didn't want to take lessons with him anymore he
called me a baby.

Does it sound like I am acting like a baby? I think in a way I am, but I
really can't help it because I am so tore up over it. I have two weeks until
my audition and the last day of school is tomorrow, so this means that I
will be on my own. Is this a wise of me? I really do think that I should
stop, but what if I am just a baby? I did make it on my own with no private
instruction at all last year, would that make it safe this year?

I don't know what to do! I try to talk to my band direcot about it but all
he says is that it is because I am his best student and he tries to push me
by insulting me.

-Rebecca

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