Klarinet Archive - Posting 000270.txt from 1998/07

From: "Susan Pontow" <strawbyrri@-----.com>
Subj: RE: [kl] what am I going to do?
Date: Sun, 12 Jul 1998 15:56:59 -0400

Dear Jennifer,

I have been through very very similar difficulties as you are presently
experiencing, and perhaps worse ones than that. I know the feeling of
being overwhelmed. I am 24 years old, have had seemingly continual
disasters in my life for the past 21 years, and had been overwhelmed for
the past 10, attempting suicide 2 or 3 times, having probably over a
dozen panic/anxiety attacks, and finally collapsing this past Christmas,
about 1 or 2 days away from complete dehydration. The day after
Christmas, my mom kidnapped me, and now within the past few months I am
doing just fine.

I don't want to go into all the gory details here on the list; this is
not the place. I just don't want to see anyone else fall into the same
trap that I did with being overwhelmed. Jennifer, if you want to have
me available to talk with, just send me an email at
strawbyrri@-----. you can
call me collect at any time. Often I had wished someone would always be
there for me to talk, but no one was. I just want to offer my help to
you. I can also reccommend some very good books and exercises that you
can use to control your feelings of anxiety and depression.

Now, I will start an excellent well-paying job tomorrow, and I figure
that since no one has hired me as a clarinetist yet, I will form my own
groups. So if anyone is looking for work and is close the Pittsburgh
area, please take a look at
http://www.freeyellow.com/members4/strawbyrri/index.html

take care,

:)

Susan Pontow
strawbyrri@-----.com
http://www.freeyellow.com/members4/strawbyrri/index.html

P.S. everyone who has responded to your request has given excellent
advice.

>-----Original Message-----
>From: Jennifer McKenna [mailto:mai_lin@-----.com]
>Sent: Tuesday, June 30, 1998 9:11 PM
>To: Klarinet@-----.org
>Subject: [kl] what am I going to do?
>
>
>I'm in a real pickle here people...I need some good advice, and a
little
>bit of motivation mixed in.
>I had a great year at University of North Texas, and was all set for an
>equally great summer. That was until my father told me that he didn't
>have the rest of the money to pay off the semester, and wouldn't have
it
>for a long time. So he told me that I was going to have to take the
next
>semester off....then my ONLY friend down there (i'm from massachusetts)
>told me she was changing her major to accounting and transfering to
some
>school in colorado....so I was not going to go through another horrible
>year of no one to talk to.
>So I decided I was going to transfer to a school closer to home...only
>problem is I can't even get my trnasfer in until I have texas paid
>off...great...and then other problems happened...and I was kicked out
of
>my house....so now I'm feeling pretty down on myself and have found it
>impossible to concentrate on anything, and have now gone a week without
>practicing and at least two weeks before that with out anything
>productive coming out of the times i did practice. I have lost alot of
>my motivation...but I know this is what I want to do....i just can't
>concentrate now, and I know that its becuase of whats happening in my
>life, i just need new direction...i hope someone has had something
>similar to this happen in there lives at one point...any suggestions
>would be great....thanks in advance.
>
>jennifer mckenna
>mai_lin@-----.com
>university of north texas
>music ed major/clarinet concentration
>
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