Klarinet Archive - Posting 000365.txt from 1997/08

From: Ariadne49@-----.com
Subj: Re: major decisions
Date: Mon, 11 Aug 1997 12:09:25 -0400

hi sarah, i'm noelle. and we have something incommon. i'm sturggling with the
same problem as you are but i'm already entering my junior year of college
and i'm neck high in decisions that i am having a VERY hard time making. i
have decided to graduate with my bachelor's in music performance. now here's
where my problem lies. i love performing so much. the stage is my home and i
know that that is what i REALLY want to do, however i am not willing to
sacrifice financial stability to do so. i am also interested in music therapy
but i'm not quite sure if this is really a stable field either. i already
have 11 private students and i know i love teaching them. however, i have
volunteered for an entire semester at an elementary/middle school as the
clarinet clinician and i KNOW that classroom teaching is NOT for me. i don't
think it would be fair to the students to take that up because of money
purposes. the reasons i don't like classroom teaching is that i don't like
having to discipline more then teach. i also feel that i am to much of a
softy and that i would have a very hard time maintaining discipline and that
i'd let the students walk all over me and then i would go home complaining
about it to everyone else but the students who need to hear it and i would
make everyone miserable. i'm in such a rut because i am afraid that by doing
another job i will be sacrificing my dream because i won't have the time to
dedicate the practcing i need if i want to be a performer. but like i said, i
am TOTALLY not willing to sacrifice financial comfort.... any suggestions
would really be of great appreciation... thank you Noelle